Job Hunting

My heart is heavy as I type this post. I am looking for another job. I would LOVE to work for free here at JDRF, but sadly, I have to work to help support my family. We have prescription co-pays that cost more than most people's car payments every month and there is that really bad habit that we all have of eating food. My hours have been cut, I had hoped for a raise, but alas that didn't happen either so I am on the search for another position. As things stand right now, about 75% of what I make goes to pay for daycare & school for the girls and gas money. I hate dealing with money and it is a major source of stress for me and always has been - but my reality lies in the fact that what is happening now will not help my family. We will never get ahead with my current situation and that is not something I'm comfortable with.

For those of you in the Dallas area, I am asking for you to keep this information confidential and not mention this to the folks here in the office because I am doing this quietly. I simply cannot help my family by working and quite honestly I am devastated. When I do find another job I will give proper notice and continue to do whatever I can to help this chapter succeed. There is quite a bit more to this, but I am choosing to handle it professionally.

I have updated my resume and started my search officially last night. If anyone out there knows of anyone hiring HR people with a lot of database management background and a need for someone with recruiting experience, please let me know.

On the plus side, I talked to my mom yesterday and she is seriously considering moving here to Dallas - I almost pulled the car over and did a happy dance on the side of the road. The people of Red Oak can thank me later for holding back. ;)

Where is the light at the end of this darn tunnel?

So I've been a SAHM for the past 7 months.....my last real office job was for a company that is a mess on a good day with an owner that has more personalities than a soap opera. I opened my mouth when I shouldn't have and my resignation was accepted that very day - I didn't shed a tear or even acknowledge the relief I felt until I was in my car leaving that day. I have never regretted leaving that Godforsaken company and no matter what happens I never will. I am ready to go to work again out in the office world and now have to figure out what will make me happy AND help support my family so that my husband isn't bearing it all on his shoulders. I have loved every day home with my 2 girls and really have treasured my time with them - but the rest of the homemaker role is just not something I'm good at. My house isn't organized or tidy, but it is clean at least and I do cook every night. I was home to see my littlest one take her first step and then again when she was running like a mad woman 2 weeks later. I have been able to get my oldest ready for pre-school and go to all of their appointments. Money as always is a stress factor for me - I stress when I'm bringing home a paycheck and I stress when I'm not. Large purchases are something I stew about for days on end and I rarely buy anything for myself. I have a list of personal wants, like everyone does, but mine is for very specific things.....like the exact digital camera I would give my eye teeth for....but that's pretty much where my personal wants end. I want to feel good about my role on this planet, the kind of wife and mother I am - but is it too much to ask that I get paid good money to support my family?